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For me it was less of a 'phase' - I simply burned out in a 'conflagration' of nightmares (I'd been having them since the beginning, on and off). The last was when I was at University. Ever woken up and been unable to move? Its called (I found out later) 'sleep aponea' - the body when asleep is filled with muscle freezing chemicals to stop us acting out our dreams. At times of stress it all screws up and even if awake the effect continues. Its also common to have a second effect - despite being awake you're still dreaming.

The University had noted I'd been having problems - I was described as being a 'zombie' - the nightmares were coming every night. It was usually fragments of the events of Yekaterinburg. You know how dreams work - all jumbled up stuff. In one I walked out of my lecture hall (in the dream) to where there should have been a lobby to find myself in 'the cellar room' - empty but with all the 'splatters' up the walls as if it had just happened. The double doors at the back of the room were open and led to the main corridor of the chemistry department.

When people tried to find out what was wrong with me appariently I didn't make sense. I was given a week off and saw my family then returned. After a week back I'd had a few 'flickers' - standing next to "Comrade Ermakoff" in a bus queue (no grotesque bits - he was just standing there normally waiting for the bus and eating a take-away - but intimidating to see him). At the end of the week I actually felt quite settled..............(more coming)

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Ones of my own

* You hear something that sounded (even vaguely like) the word 'Tatiana' mentioned on the TV in a bar and demand everyone goes silent and the volume turned up. (1999 - Aged 19)
* You are taken to the imperial War Museum (London) specifically to wean you off all this 'royalty rubbish' by reintroducuing you to your previous mania - WWII. You instead spend all 7 hours in the one and only Russian room in the WWI exhibit reading the same stuff over and over again (feeling upset you couldn't find a decent photo of Tatiana, but looking more intently as if one will 'just appear' if you keep looking) while your dad (A Trades Union Official of all things) looks like he's about to scream. (Aged 16)
* You start drawing little heart shapes on some of the photos in your books. :-[ (No prize for guessing which particular second daughter)
* You begin buying books on time travel possibilities and set yourelf the task of rescuing them. (Aged 15)
* You get messed up while considering the above - if they are rescued then you would never have encountered the subject (they'd just have been another historical group). Your head melts trying to solve this paradox and you burst in tears in your room surrounded by books of them.
* You blub through your tears, apologising to them, for letting them all down.
* You try instead to find a way to FAKE their execution (while still rescuing them) so that history will still go as before.
* Вы самостоятельно учитесь Русского, так что если вы преуспеваете в спасении их вы можете говорить легко!
* Turning on the telly years later you see a 3-minute clip on the revolution and spend all night thinking about it. You look on the web and start typing '"tatiana" into wikipedia. You add it to your favourites list and immediately open a new desktop folder entitled 'OTMA'. You feel somehow 'complete again'. (Aged 30, about 4 weks ago)

Posted elsewhere, but:

"This same odd fellow, uncorrected
To his Tatyana makes his way."

-Eugene Onegin

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The Alexander Palace / Alexander Park Bridge Photo Sought.
« on: May 12, 2010, 05:06:54 PM »
Just of curiosity, I was wondering if anyone has knowledge of a modern photo of one of the bridges in the Alexander park? More precisely - the bridge which I presume is on the north side of the palace. A 1917 photo of it is known - Nicholas is sat on the side of the bridge with a guard behind him and Tatiana on HIM's right (with a cat on her lap)*. If it helps it's the one on p230 of N&A The Family Albums by Prince Michael of Greece. (A book full of mistakes but never mind).

*No scanner yet - I'll try down library tomorrow.

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Olga Nicholaievna / Re: Olga a flapper?
« on: May 12, 2010, 02:17:48 AM »
Another meaning of flapper comes about in England.

When votes for women were being discussed as early as 1906, the term 'flapper' was used as a woman who panicked, overreacted or was otherwise ruled by her emotions. During these discussions it was quickly assertained that if the vote was granted then women below 30 should be excluded - the assumption being that women needed more time to grow up and stop panicking! This 21-30 group of women were known as 'the flapper vote'.

Stanley Gibbes described Olga:

"She was hot tempered, but did not bear grudges. She had her father's heart, but lacked his consistency...................straightforward and sincere, she was unable to conceal her feelings..."

Compare to the definition given above.

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Tatiana Nicholaievna / Re: Tatiana Smiling?
« on: May 12, 2010, 01:38:44 AM »
Welcome back. Romanov fever only goes  dormant , but  never  away! lol!

:)

And now, at spring's bright invitation,
He quits his place of hibernation
Close as the marmot would require
The double windows the snug fire
And one fine morning finds him flying
Past the Neva in swift sleigh
On the streaked ice the sunbeams play
Upon the streets the snow is lying
By thaw and grimy steps defaced.
But whither in such anxious haste
Does Eugene drive? Yes, I suspected
You knew the answer - as you say:
This same odd fellow, uncorrected,
To his Tatyana makes his way.


Eugene Onegin (Pushkin)

;D ;D ;D


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Tatiana Nicholaievna / Re: Tatiana Smiling?
« on: May 12, 2010, 01:27:20 AM »

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Tatiana Nicholaievna / Re: Tatiana Smiling?
« on: May 11, 2010, 11:36:46 AM »
The one with her squinting and wearing a sailor's outfits - her hair is dark and shiny, which would be Tatiana. On all the ones I've seen of Maria her hair either doesn't shine or only very slightly and is slightly lighter.

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Tatiana Nicholaievna / Re: Tatiana Smiling?
« on: May 11, 2010, 11:30:57 AM »
Hello - just picked up OTMA again (last month) after an 9 - year 'holiday' (everyone thought I was nuts). Amazing to see I am not the only one! And very gratifying. I've got huge amounts at home, but no scanner I'm afraid. Will try down the library soon.

Try these at livadia.org







Pavel Mikhailovitch

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