Thanks all. I think, no I know it’s much harder on the people around you really. Even though it’s you who feels it and endures the inner body turmoil the people around you are the ones who have to watch it, when you decline you can look in the mirror, mentally you don’t really see change, but those around you can see it more vividly
Yea without the support of the people around you, the ones close, it’s a lost battle. Nicky was great, and I can’t say enough about her because Oh man I, was very verbal at times during that ordeal. She would just look at me and say STF, suck it up be man or no back rub, worse yet I’ll sink the boat and really give you something to whine about. Sigh. That would generally do it putting me in my place, but I’m grateful for it.