Dear Holly & Reashka,
Thank you very much for taking time to respond to my posting. I know everyone is full of their own of life's issues, and I hesitated to post. But sometimes when you need help and support in issues such as health, in terms of receiving 'hope', uplift and any new way of addressing an illness, or even possible 'cures', I believe it is important to reach out to known or unknown people. One can't stay an island and think one has all the answers. At best, what has worked for me in my case has been prayer, of which I am eternally thank filled, as I can't take any medications.
I am struck by what Holly wrote to me, in saying 'misfortunes don't take a preference to whom they strike'. That is a very important statement Holly, and thank you for voicing that. In one way I do think muchly about the future as I have a husband and beautiful daughter, of whom I don't wish to leave as yet. I knw it is hard on them watching me go down hill, so for most of the time
'i wistle a happy tune, strike a fearless pose, so know one ever knows, 'im afraid'; well, not afraid, but certainly with reservations about all of this and the unknown..
I am for the most part through all my life a positive person, but sometimes weak when pain becomes much of the time too much to bear. I think for the most part I'm shattered by the ongoing pain which has neither stopped nor diminished. Because of this I know it has been why I have reached out to read your posts daily when i feel i can't go any further. Lack of sleep and extreme pain can and does send people mad. Hopefully I am not that far gone, lol, and have enough perspective, calm and inner strength to know that we don't go through all of these trials in life for naught. Though my issues are of the maximum, I still understand how important the gift of life has been, and continues to be. I am thankful for my family, friends, this forum, and God above. Thank you again for believing in others enough to give them words of prayer, and cheer !
Tatiana+
