I just wanted to give everyone an update on the manuscript.
Starting this January, I sent out 20 letters of query to various Canadian publishers. I got 19 rejection letters and one asked to see the full manuscript. Of the rejection letters, most said:
"sorry, but we receive thousands of manuscripts every year but we only publsh about 20 books a year".
A few made critical comments about the sample chapters:
"although it shows promise, it is mainly an adventure/mystery but we mainly publish romantic novels" or
"our reviewers have read the sample chapters with interest but felt it did not fit our publishing needs" or
"our reviewer felt that some elements of the plot were not believable".
The one publisher that did read the full manuscript gave a very favourable review. They read it with great interest and said that I was a "strong writer" and the Alexei character was quite memorable. The reason they rejected it was because they publish "young adult" novels and my main characters are mostly adults. They said if I re-wrote the manuscript with a young adult as the protagonist, they might publish it.
Needless to say the first 19 rejections were very discouraging. Sending out material to publishers and waiting for the rejection envelopes to come in the mail is like a slow form of torture. At one point, I was so fed up with the process, I had made my mind up to give up writing. When the favourable review came in, it gave me enough hope to keep trying.
So, I sent out another 20 query letters to US publishers. The results were a little better. I got about 18 rejection letters. Most were very kind but made similar statements like "we get thousands of manuscripts every year, only publish about 25 books/year. Keep trying."
One publisher asked to see the full manuscript in April. I sent it to them and waited patiently. Two months went by and I heard nothing. I sent them an email asking if they received it. I got no response for about three weeks. Again, I was getting fed up and about to give up. Then one day, I got an email back saying
"sorry for the delay, we have been undergoing a re-organization of our office and personnel. We currently have all our manuscripts lined up for 2008, but there might be an opening for your manuscript in the fall of 2009"
I was excited. Finally it was going to get published!!!!! Then I said, OK, what's the next step? How does your review process/editorial process proceed? Then I got a strange reply which I cannot understand:
"please recommend someone to review the manuscript. Thank-you."
My understanding was that the publisher reviewed the manuscript and had in-house editorial staff. I replied back "I've already had half a dozen people in the business review the manuscript and they have provided me with feedback and I have already incorporated into the manuscript."
They replied back: "Please recommend someone who can review this manuscript for us as we are short-staffed. Thank-you."
This response was totally confusing to me. This doesn't make sense. I thought about it for a few days and concluded that it was a form of rejection. In other words, they were telling me to have someone review it and revise it because it is not good enough yet. That response came a couple of weeks ago and I haven't responded to them. Again, I'm getting fed up with the process. It is slow torture. Every day there is some form of rejection or reason to not go on. Why bother with the hassle? Even if the story gets published, the pain I went through to get it published will negate any pleasure.
Anyway, a second US publisher asked to see the full manuscript and I sent it out to them. That was about two months ago. I'm still waiting for a response.
I've got a couple of other publishers that I want to try. They deal mainly with historical fiction and classical music.
But I must tell you, my heart is not in it any more. I spent three years researching, taking novel-writing courses, reading "how to write" books, writing short stories, writing the manuscript, sending it out to professional reviewers, having it critiqued, re-writing, paying writing consultants to go through the story line by line. All in all, the manuscript went through 10 major drafts. I spent countless hours thinking about the plot, the characters, the themes, the decriptions, the setting, the style, the genre etc. etc.
And what for? Rejection, rejection, rejection, rejection.
I still believe in the story. I think it is a beautiful story, well written. It is a real page-turner. Every chapter ends with intrigue, mystery, some suspense. I read portions of the manuscript and still get tears in my eyes when one of my characters experiences something emotional. They seem so real and alive to me.
And then I go to the bookstore and pickup the best-seller or rent a movie at the video store and it's all guns/car-chases/extreme violence/profanity. Our society is saturated with gratuitous violence.
My story is about love, Nature, adventure, romance, history, art, classical music, intrigue, suspense.
Yes, I may just self-publish it. But that will be an empty victory, because who will read it? Who will distribute it? It's not what I had in mind when I first started writing.