Cohan Tany
Welcome to our forum. I agree with you about the difficulty about accepting the anti Jewish practices of the Imperial Regime yet acknowledging Nicholas II as a good man. My own Grandfather, born in Warsaw in1884 used to say, in words of "Fiddler" "May G-d bless theTsar and keep him, far away from us."
I quote to you a passage from Spiridovitch, close to Nicholas as chief of the Personal Secret Police to HM the Emperor. He refers to Prince Metschersky, a second father to Nicholas II, this is about his last audience with Nicholas II before the Prince died:
"You don't know, my friend, how difficult it was to speak to the Emperor…Even thinking about that reception is painful for me...I spoke about the Jewish question. The Emperor listened to me without interrupting me and with great attention. From time to time, in his kind face, I saw the shadow of displeasure. I did everything I could to force him to respond to me. But he kept silent. Knowing well his intelligence, the fineness of his spirit, I was wounded that he did not want to face the evidence. When I had finished with the Jewish question, the Emperor thought for several minutes, looked me fixed in the eyes and slowly smiled as if he wanted to soften his response, said to me: 'Excuse me, my old friend, but I am not in agreement with you. I thank you very much for the advice which you have given me and which has been dictated by your devotion to me, by the love for our Mother Russia, but…you know that it is often that I do not wish to follow your advice. I must take into consideration many other circumstances which you do not know about, which escape your attention…My responsibility towards Russia is so great that I do not have the right to consider a question of such great importance to the State on just one side alone, although I should find it personally desireable. You do not know all of these circumstances which I do, which I do not have the right to ignore, and which, quite to the contrary, I must take into consideration…"