(This is a weird subject)
I was watching a home video of Nicholas II's family, and in it there was a tree rustling in the wind in the corner. And I thought that was really weird! The tree was standing right there where the real people were, at an actual moment, and it might be there still. Seeing the tree and knowing what it really looked like, rustling, despite the less-than-perfect quality of the video, made me realize that if they'd had modern-day-quality flim equipment, we'd see how they really looked while living.
I guess if you watch the home videos, you're getting as close to them as you possibly can, since it's footage of real moments that happened, but there's still a level of separation from the absence of color and sound. And even if I know aspects of their personalities and things they did, I can never know what they were really like on an ordinary basis because I wasn't there. It feels strange to watch the videos becuase you're both close and far to the real people.
Have you ever had a thought like this? It kind of remeinds me of the music from "Russian Ark", because it's peaceful and sort of happy, but sad at the same time. It makes their deaths even more tragic to think of them like this.
Just some thoughts
