Welcome back. And I wouldn't be so hard on yourself. Though I wasn't around six years ago to judge like a number of other members on this forum the simple fact that you even found and joined a serious history site such as this at the tender age of 12 speaks volumes in and unto itself!
True.
It seems to ebb and flow with most people. A burst of interest for a few months and then Romanovphilia recedes below the surface again. Funny thing is that I had a similar experience around the same age. When I was an adolescent in the early-90s, shortly after the fall of the Soviet Union, I remember having a burst of interest in this subject, mostly past down from my mother who had recently read Nicholas & Alexandra. It lasted for maybe a year. But I was young - only 11 or 12 - and history subjects weren't of immediate interest or concern. Then a few years later when the Jewels Tour made it's way to the U.S. I got interested again for a few months...would have been 17 or 18 at this time. But once again it vanished and I moved onto to other subjects of historical interest; American Civil War, Vietnam-era, WW2, etc. Finally the bug bit me again in 2011, almost out of nowhere, and while the last year and half or so has been a busier (hectic!) time in my life it's never really left me...
My Romanov interest hasn't really been revived, but I decided to look back at this forum for nostalgia's sake. Speaking of Robert K. Massie, I read his Catherine the Great biography when it was released, and loved it just as much as I did Nicholas and Alexandra.
I think you and I would definitely have gotten along then :-)
Aww, thanks! I remember getting along with people and they seemed to like me okay, but reading those old posts are quite cringeworthy. I know I was 12 and unsophisticated, but still.
As in "Miss Misery" Elliot Smith? That was at least a couple of years before you joined the AP I believe.
Yes, you're correct. He died in 2003, but we were talking about it years after the fact, around 2012 if I remember correctly.
What's interesting is some of the things I had forgotten about, such as my Romanov dreams and how I found the forum in the first place. I had completely forgotten all of that!