Misha also wrote a similar letter to Nicholas, dated 1 November 1912 :-
"Dear Nicky
I know that my letter will cause you a lot of sorrow, and I ask you in advance, as your brother, to listen and understand me. I am even more sorry to distress you, when you are already so preoccupied by Alexei's illness, but it was precisely this circumstance, and the thought that I could be separated from Natalia Brassova, that prompted me to marry her.
I have already loved her for five years, and can no longer say that on my side it was only a distraction. On the contrary, with each year I have become more deeply attached to her, and the thought that I could be deprived of her and our child - was simply unbearable.
At first I did not consider the possibility of marrying her, but the last five years, and particularly the past one in Petersburg, changed my intentions. You should know that, even during the two difficult years living apart (when I was in Orel), we were always a family, and I always looked on Natalia as my wife and always honoured her, which is why the humiliations and insults which she inevitably had to bear in Petersburg because of her position, were so terribly painful for me.
I give you my word that I did not act under pressure from anyone. Natalia never talked to me about it or demanded it, I myself came to the conclusion that to live in this way was dishonourable and that I had to escape from a false position. All this prompted me to take the decision and get married to Natalia.
Our wedding took place at the Serbian church of St Savva in Vienna on 16/29 October. I know that punishment awaits me for this act, and am ready to bear it."i remember a letter of nikolay 2 to MF. he was embittered by this marriage. it was not on;y because of the marriage itself but due to the fact that 'misha" did promiss not to get married in secret. he promised to preserve a sort of status quo in his relation with his lady. and he kept reeating that he DID break the promise that he gave
That letter was dated on 7 November 1912. Here it is : -
"My dear sweet Mama!
I thank you with all my heart for your kind words. I was also going to write to you about this new sorrow, which has befallen our family, but you had already heart the disgusting news.
I enclose the letter I received in the train on the way here. Read it and see for yourself, can he really, after everything he has written, remain in the service and in command of your cavalry?
Yes, dear Mama, I say as you do - may the Lord forgive him! Unfortunately everything is over between him and me now, because he has broken his word.
How many times did he tell me, without my asking, he himself gave his word that he would not marry her. And I believed him implicitly! What upsets me particularly - is that he refers to Alexei's illness as having forced him to rush into this ill-considered step! He doesn't seem concerned with either your distress, or our distress, or the scandal this event will cause in Russia. And at such a time, when everyone is talking of war, and just a few months before the Jubilee of the Romanov dynasty!!! It's shameful and awful!
My first thought was also to keep the news quiet, but on reading his letter two or three times I realized that it's impossible for him to return to Russia now. Sooner or later everyone here will find out, and will be surprised if nothing has happened to him, as the others were dealt with very severely.
About two months ago, Fredericks learnt from Vrangel that Misha had requested a large sum of money from his office, and that apparently he even bought an estate in France.
Now all is clear. I cannot find words to express, dear Mama, how I feel about what you must be suffering. May the Merciful Lord give you strength! What luck that dear Xenia is with you at the moment, to share the torments of your heart.
Alix and I both embrace you tenderly. Alexei sends you a big kiss and thanks you. Thank God he is cheerful and happy. Christ be with you.
Your old Nicky, who loves you with all his heart."Again, from Andrei Maylunas's and Sergei Mironenko's
A Lifelong Passion.
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