what seems like a thousand years ago, when i was very little, maybe six, i saw a hallmark special, anastasia. it began with a dramatization of the cellar murder. it was the movie with ingrid bergman. i felt as if i had seen the cellar scene before.
then, when i was nine or ten, i saw robert massie on the old mike douglas show. he was talking about his new book, N&A. he talked about the cellar murder; i decided i needed to know more. the summer i was ten, i bought a paperback copy at the supermarket and read it. from then on, i was entranced. in fact, when we were little, our cousins used to play a game, hiding from the nazis. after that, i changed the game for the younger set: hiding from the bolsheviks. i was always anastasia.
that summer, after i finished the book, i began teaching myself russian from a grammar and dictionary from the public library. from that time, every summer whilst i was in school, i took up my russian. but i really didn't learn much until later.
i so loved the family; i felt related to them and so close to them. i was almost delusional. i had three fascinations then: rome, russia (and from then revolutions) and the beatles. i was still young enough to be playing with dolls and i set my dolls all up as members of the family or the suite. i had a stuffed skunk who was rasputin. then as i grew older the beatles (and music in general) took over for a time.
in university i majored in iranian area studies as an undergraduate.i went to iran and then there was the revolution. then i went to u of penn, where there was not only a great iranian studies department but a famous prof of russian history, alexander riasanovsky. i did a lot of russian history there and decided to combine the study of iranian current events with russian history and did graudate work comparing the two revolutions.
while working on it, i had the chance to meet some of the iranian royals who, seemed to have read their russian history, so they told me. they looked at the example of the tsar and his family and ran when they could.
BTW, i carried that old copy of N&A all over the world with me until someone in tehran asked me to please "lend" it to them. we were in a bomb shelter during the iraq-iran war, being shelled. we were all terrified but that person most of all. to help her take her mind off the shelling, i did so and i've never seen it since.
and the first web site i found when i first connected to the web in 1995 was...the alexander palace time machine.