I had--I guess you'd call it a day dream because I wasn't asleep---but in it, I was in the Ipatiev House on the night of July 17, 1918, and I was watching from the bottom of the steps, NAOTMAA coming down after being woken up suddenly. It was like I was there from the future and no one could see me; but I didn't know that. I thought one of the guards would find me and shoot me or something. Anyway, I watched as they were led down to the cellar; a few mintues passed after they were told to wait, and as soon as I realized what the firing squaud was going to do, I ran down the stairs and into the room, but there was something like a force field keeping me from them, so I couldn't save them. It was really scary. Alix was the first to go; then Olga...and I watched Masha, and Anastasia crouch down by the back door, screaming and covering their heads. I couldn't find Tatiana in the smoke, but as soon as I looked around I saw her lying there, motionless next to her mother. When I looked back to where the younger girls had been, one of the bolsheviks came over and started stabbing them with their boyonet; I had to turn my head at that point. I couldn't watch.
After it was all over, the guards brought stretchers in; when Anastasia was lifted off the floor and layed on the stretcher she sat up and cried out, "help me!". I'm standing there watching this whole, thing and as soon as she was quieted I woke up. I felt horrible when I woke up because I couldn't save them! It's like watching a movie about history repeating itself over and over until someone stops it....
PS. Sorry if I scared anybody...