When I first started reading about the mystery of Anastasia, I very much wanted to believe that she had survived. As I continued to read, I kept fluctuating between "Yes, she is alive," and "No, she couldn't possibly be." Â For many years I was right on the fence.
Then the DNA tests came back. Although--from what I saw on the documentary--Gleb Botkin's granddaughter was completely and sincerely shocked by the revelations, I chose to believe in the DNA results.
I remembered reading an article, at the time of the 1971 film, in which one of the OTMA actresses said of the mystery, "What does it matter if she did survive? She'd be so old!"--and I wanted to scream, "What difference does that make? Nazi war criminals should be brought to trial, no matter how old they are, and likewise missing persons who turn out to be 'found' should be celebrated and recognized, no matter what their age!" And I still believe that.
However, I also wonder if any of us who have feelings for OTMAA should really want one of those children to have spent decades being ridiculed and subjected to all sorts of abuse, all the time realizing that she (or he) alone survives, and knowing that siblings and parents died most horribly, and that she (or he) has been left to live a nightmare?
Although I could never wish death on them, I think for them to have died together might have been best. Say, for example, that Olga did marry Prince Carol, and the others died. What sort of peace would Olga have had? Carol, as we know, was a dud of a husband. So what sort of consolation would it have been to have existed in an unhappy marriage, knowing that the bodies of your family lay festering in an unmarked grave?
As long as the remains of Alexei and one of his sisters remain missing, there always be some doubt as to how many Romanovs died that night. And I will not say "impossible!" that one of the family members might have survived. But given the overall situation, it does seem a stretch.
In the meantime, I feel sorrow for Anna Anderson. I believe that she did think she was Anastasia. Whether she was or not, of course, is what so many of us continue to question and debate. But either way, hers was a tragic and largely unfulfilled life, and I could not wish that on a child of Nicholas and Alexandra . . . nor anyone else's child.