You're not being silly! I think it's just normal to feel this way, because we partly define ourselves with our people's actions, present and past, not only our owns. But this is why they teach history: to stop younger generations from repeating their ancesters mistakes...which has, unfortunately, only a limited success...
Let's concentrate on happier years, will ya? I mean, we all know that NAOTMAA had a terrible ending, but they were also great people with great lives. Look, I found those photos with Olga and Alexei:
The girls and Alexei at his christening, 1904. I just like the way Olga is looking at her new baby-brother. At already 8, she must have understood much better then the Little Pair what his birth meant for their family.

The children, 1906. Not specifically of O and A, but still nice to see. As a child, I used to hold my youngest brothers like this, often in family parties, at the table after dessert...


If anyone can find the whole picture, you'll see how funny Alexei and Olga look together! (1906).

Finally, I once saw a photo of Olga carrying Alexei on her back, but I don't have it. Anybody can help? Olga is wearing the same coat then on this photo with Tatiana. I think the two were shot in winter 1908-1909 but I'm not sure.

P.S. The colored photo I posted is not mine. I found it on the Glint of Gold website, and I don't want to offend anybody for posting their art stuff! I'll be really sorry if it does, but please tell me anyway!