songs about naotmaa

[Romanov_History_Buff]

I've listened to a song called "Mama Look Sharp" from the musical 1776 and just the two recent times a couple days ago and right now as I'm typing (which is why this post is being made) it somehow reminds me of Alexei to Alexandra

Here the lyrics:
Courier:
Momma, hey momma, come lookin' for me
I'm here in the meadow by the red maple tree
Momma, hey momma, look sharp, here I be
Hey, hey, momma look sharp

Them soldiers, they fired. Oh ma, did we run
But then we turned round and the battle begun
Then I went under, oh ma, am I done?
Hey, hey, momma look sharp

My eyes are wide open, my face to the sky
Is that you I'm hearin' in the tall grass nearby?
Momma come find me before I do die
Hey, hey, momma look sharp
All:
I'll close your eyes, my Billy
Them eyes that cannot see
And I'll bury you, my Billy
Beneath the maple tree
Courier:
And never again will you whisper to me
Hey, hey, momma look sharp

[Katya90]

I've never heard anything from that musical before, but from reading the lyrics I agree. Very expressive! I'll have to give it a listen some time.

I guess I'll add a few more of my ramblings now...
Next song: Spark (Tori Amos... as are all the others)
This song reminds me a lot of Alexandra and the troubles in her life. Opening lines:
She's addicted to nicotine patches. >the various drugs Alix was taking for all of her illnesses
She's afraid of the light in the dark. >her distrust of anything against her opinion, i.e., those who hated Rasputin

The next verse is what made me first come to see this song as Alexandra-related:
She's convinced she could hold back a glacier,
(Convinced she could hold back sands of fire.)
But she couldn't keep Baby alive.
Doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere.
(Ha... doubting... guilty, guilty.)
Here... Here... Here... >This one is pretty obvious. Alix tried to be a mother to all of Russia, to stand firm for the country, yet her own child was frail and weak. This of course probably made her feel like a failure on some levels, since she couldn't produce a "normal" son.

You say you don't want it again and again.
But you don't, don't really mean it.
You say you don't want it, this circus we're in.
But you don't, don't really mean it.
You don't, don't really mean it... >This verse seems to be her talking to Nicky towards the end of his reign, reminding him to hang on to his title.

The bridge is then the most expressive:
How many fates turn around in the overtime?
Ballerinas that have fins that you'll never find.
You thought that you were the bomb, yes well so did I.
Say you don't want it, say you don't want it... >These seem like Alix's thoughts during the revolution: confused, scattered, angry, etc. The question of fate is on how they could go from rulers of such a vast empire to prisoners. The "ballerinas" part seems to be a callback to Nicholas's romance with MK, how part of his "fate" was not being allowed to have a relationship with her. Overall a very moody song.

Next: Take Me With You
This song reminds me of NAOTMAA's final days in the Ipatiev house, hoping there would be a rescue somehow. The point of view seems to be from one of OTMA's perspective:
In and out on this same path that I followed for years
Can't I look around and ask how could we still end up here
I can't just hold tight
Wait for them to cut us to ribbons
If the sharpest thing where you come is a blade of grass
Oh, take me with you...

The chorus and the next few verses continue this mood. Then there's the bridge:
Tears turn to steel and the wound never heals
in the darkness of November >The October/November Revolution, yet another blow to the tradition of Tsardom
Well the witch is in the tower
And the snake's in the bower
And the hunt goes on forever >I see the "witch" as a representation of the new Bolshevik government, "in the tower" meaning that they are high up, the control everything now.
The "snakes" are the soldiers in the Ipatiev house, watching their every move, not letting them escape. The "hunt" is the murdering of NAOTMAA's family members.

Now the stake is there to burn
My fathers robe is torn between cross and Mother >The first line is obvious... the Romanovs are going to be "burned at the stake," per se. However, the next line actually doesn't apply to NAOTMAA very well, since Alexandra was very religious.
With the blood on your hands, come on
What you doing
I am fed up with this questioning. > Seems like one of OTMA is interrogating/telling off the guards.

Another song I think symbolizes the time in the Ipatiev house is Black-Dove (January)...
She was a January girl, she never let on how insane it was,
In that tiny, kind of scary house,
By the woods, by the woods, by the woods, by the woods... >None of OTMA were born in January, but the rest of the verse has a strong connection to them. It seems to epitomize the uneasy feelings they must've felt under imprisonment. The next verse has more connections:

She had a January world. So many storms, not right somehow.
How a lion becomes a mouse...
By the woods, by the woods, by the woods, by the woods... >January world = Russia, due to its northern situation. "So many storms"... uprisings, protests, revolutions. "How a lion becomes a mouse" reminds me of Nicholas, going from Tsar to being totally disrespected by the guards, ordered around, etc.

The chorus seems to be a form of comfort to OTMA, if a bit anachronistic:
Black-dove... Black-dove...
You're not a helicopter, you're not a cop-out either, honey.
Black-dove... Black-dove...
You don't need a space ship. They don't know you've already lived...
On the other side of the galaxy. >This seems to be an analogy for how famous OTMA have become after death. It's saying, you don't need cars, bikes, or any other transportation to get away from this place. You will be free and you will be known far and wide. A little strange probably, but that's how I see it.

One section of Flying Dutchman reminds me of NAOTMAA's imprisonment as well...
Keep the boys spinning in their own little world >How the aristocracy and the rulers of Russia were distanced from the realities of the average person while in power, and how information was kept from them once they were imprisoned
Time up, and so we won't say a word >This reminds me of the final night, everyone being led down to the basement...
They keep the boys spinning in their own little world
So afraid he'll be what they never were >Killing Alexei so no one could ever put him in power
The rest of the song is completely different though!

And another song, Father Lucifer, reminds me of Rasputin in the first few verses, but then the lyrics get too modern... the line "Baby's still in his comatose state" reminds me of Alexei though.

I'll cut off this post now, since I fear it's getting waaaay too long, but next I have a few songs that remind me of Anastasia, and then the songs from Under the Pink *besides* Yes, Anastasia which remind me of NAOTMAA.

[Romanov_History_Buff]

I've never heard anything from that musical before, but from reading the lyrics I agree. Very expressive! I'll have to give it a listen some time.

I found a lyrics video for "Mama Look Sharp" here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3fo7LEVVO6g

[Katya90]

Wow, I imagined it as something completely different, but I like the slow, sad melody. It does seem like an Alix & Alexei sort of thing.

More from me! First, Tori's song 1000 Oceans reminds me of NAOTMAA for some reason, even though they were never really separated, so there was no need for any of them to "find" each other. But the lyrics still fit them, because any of them would be that devoted to each other to seek one of them out if they were lost. I especially think of it as representing Alexandra's devotion to her children. Here's the lyrics:

These tears I've cried
I've cried 1000 oceans
And if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
Well, I can't believe that I would keep
Keep you from flying
And I would cry 1000 more
If that's what it takes
To sail you home
Sail you home
Sail you home

I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
You know that I will follow you

And if I find you
Will you still remeber
Playing at trains
Or does this litte blue ball
Just fade away
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
You know that I will follow you
I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you

These tears I've cried
I've cried 1000 oceans
And if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
Well I can't believe that I would keep
Keep you from flying
So I will cry 1000 more
If that's what it takes
To sail you home
Sail you home
Sail you home
Sail
Sail you home[/b]

Then I have two songs of Tori's which remind me of Anastasia. The first is Girl. The refrain especially: "She's been everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own." It reminds me of how Anastasia unfortunately never really got to grow up as much as her sisters did; her father had already abdicated before she turned 16. But in the end she did become "her own"... overlooked for OTM during her life, but ultimately becoming the most famous. And then her age also comes into play in the second verse...

And in the doorway they stay
And laugh as violins fill with water
Screams from the bluebells, can't make them go away
We'll I'm not seventeen, but I've cuts on my knees
Falling down as the winter takes one more cherry tree

The "cherry trees" here represent all the empires that collapsed as a result of World War I. The Russian Empire fell in February... the winter took another cherry tree. I'm not really sure about the meaning of the rest of the verse, but it seems very imposing, like there is something there that the subject of the song doesn't like and that scares her. For Anastasia, I could easily see this being personified as the Bolshevik guards. And then of course, "I'm not seventeen, but I've cuts on my knees." She's young, but she's already been through so much.

Last verse:
And in the mist there she rides
Castles are burning in my heart
And as I twist I hold tight
And I ride to work every morning, wondering why
"Sit in the chair and be good now"
Oh, and become all that they told you
The white coats enter her room
and I'm callin' my baby, callin' my baby, callin' my baby, callin'...

"Castles are burning"... another Revolution reference. And the last few lines without a doubt evoke the execution for me. "Sit in the chair and be good now"... the guards telling them to stand still, and wait for the photograph that never got taken. "The white coats enter her room, and I'm callin' my baby"... I can just see Alexandra screaming for her children as the Bolsheviks came in and started shooting. (Of course, the actual "white coats" would've been monarchists, but you can't be perfect.)

And then there's the song Take To The Sky, which seems to be a perfect portrait of Anastasia's personality. The lyrics:
This house is like Russia
With eyes cold and grey
You got me moving in a circle
I dyed my hair red today
I just want a little passion
To hold me in the dark
I know I've got some magic
Buried deep in my heart yeah

But my priest says
You ain't saving no souls
My father says
You ain't making any money
My doctor says
You just took it to the limit
And here I stand
With this sword in my hand
You can say it one more time
What you don't like
Let me hear it one more time then
Have a seat while I
Take to the sky

My heart is like the ocean
It gets in the way
So close to touching freedom
Then I hear the guards call my name

But my priest says
You ain't taking no souls
My father says
You ain't making any money
My doctor says
You just took it to the limit
And here I stand
With this sword in my hand
You can say it one more time
What you don't like
Let me hear it one more time then
Have a seat while I
Take to the sky

If you don't like me just a little
Why do you hang around
(There she goes again
Wearing those purple panties
There she goes again
Wearing her heart
There she goes again)
Why do you
Take it, take it, take it...

You can say it one more time
You can say it one more time
You can say it one more time
What you don't like
Let me hear it one more time then
Have a seat while I
Take to the sky

Just the whole wild/brave thing, you know?
It looks like I have 6 songs left, all from the same album as "Yes, Anastasia." I doubt I'll be able to fit them all in one post, so expect a few more from me soon.

[Tasia]

Cool, RBuff & Katya!

[Katya90]

Whoops... didn't mean to make it all italic! Looks like I used the code for bold somewhere by mistake. Sorry everyone.

Anyway... Tori Amos's album Under the Pink is best known around here for the song "Yes, Anastasia," but I think a lot of the other tracks might have been influenced by the Romanovs as well... let's start with Track 1...

Pretty Good Year
This song seems to take place on the cusp of the Revolution, or perhaps the end of 1916. Lyrics:

Tears on the sleeve of a man
Don't want to be a boy today >Nicholas, facing the end of his empire, has to make some pretty big decisions and doesn't want to be seen as a coward.
I heard the eternal footman
Bought himself a bike to race >Everything is changing, friends are becoming enemies, etc.
And Greg he writes letters and burns his CDs >Rasputin and his apocalyptic notes. The second half of the line doesn't work though, obviously!
They say you were something in those formative years >Nicholas being so adored, then slowly falling out of favor over the years...
Hold onto nothing as fast as you can
Well, still, a pretty good year. >Suddenly they have nothing left, but reflecting on 1916, it was still good until the end.

Maybe a bright sandy beach
is gonna bring you back, back, back >Reminiscing about family trips, the better days, etc.
Maybe not, so now you're off
you're gonna see America
Well let me tell you something about America... >The Romanovs thought so many countries would take them in, but none did. This last line seems like someone is breaking the news to them, and the piano part briefly turns dark and moody after this as well.

Then the bridge... it seriously makes me cry.
Some things are melting now
Some things are melting now >The way this is played, it's so peaceful and lament-like, as if it's a requiem for the Romanovs as their old lives fade away.

Then the next line comes out of nowhere, suddenly angry and forceful. It sounds to me like Alexandra crying out for someone to make Alexei better, voicing her frustration that she's done all she can, but only received contempt for her efforts.
Well, hey...
What's it gonna take
Til my baby's alright?
What's it gonna take til my baby's alright?

Then the music gets peaceful again...
And Greg he writes letters with his birthday pen
Sometimes he's aware that they're drawing him in >Rasputin knowing that someone was going to kill him
Lucy was pretty, your best friend agreed
Well, still, pretty good year >And I'm not really sure about these last lines, lol. Unless there's someone related to the Romanovs named Lucy that I'm unaware of.

Next up, track 3: Bells For Her
The piano in this song is one of the most haunting things I've ever heard. It sounds like an out-of-tune music box. The first time I heard it, I just imagined someone going into the abandoned AP and finding all of their old things, re-exploring their lives, playing with old toys that haven't kept their sound, etc.

The most "Romanovian" part of the song I think is the chorus, a simply repeated:
Can't stop what's coming
Can't stop what is on it's way
Just sounds so much like their despair towards the end... the country was falling out of their hands and there was nothing they could do. In fact, that's actually a line in another verse, which seems to invoke visuals of the Revolution:

Bells and footfalls and soldiers and dolls
Brothers and lovers she and I were
Now she seems to be sand under his shoes
There's nothing I can do.

But the other verses in the song seem to be about the Anna Anderson issue, as if Anastasia is somehow speaking to her...
And through the walls they made their mudpies
"I've got your mind," I said
She said, "I've your voice"
I said, "you don't need my voice, girl
You have your own"
But you never thought it was enough of... Anna Anderson created this new identity to get away from her actual life.
So they went, years and years
Like sisters, blanket girls
Always there through that and this
"There's nothing we cannot ever fix," I said This verse is so evocative of OTMA and their devotion to each other.

And now I speak to you, are you in there?
You have her face and her eyes
But you are not her Another Anna Anderson example.

And the last verse...
Can't stop loving... you
Can't stop what is on its way
And I see it coming
And it's on its way >The Romanov's devotion to each other was in some ways a contributing factor to their downfall

Then track 4, Past The Mission
The chorus of 'Past the mission, behind the prison tower' made me think of this song as centered on people searching for the Romanovs after their death, trying to figure out what happened to them, etc.

And the main verse that continues this theme for me is the third one, which seems to speak of Alexei and Anastasia, and the mystery of how their bodies weren't found:
Hey, they found a body
Not sure it was his
Still, they're using his name
And she gave him shelter
And somewhere I know she knows
Somewhere I know she knows
Some things only she knows... The first part of the verse talks about how when NAOTMAA's bodies were found, everyone disagreed on who was who. Then the focus seems to shift to Anastasia, talking of her love for her brother. Then at the end it goes back to the mystery, and how there are still some things that we will never know, because we weren't there.

Only three songs left!! (You're probably glad, lol.)

[Katya90]

...And here's the rest!

First: Baker Baker. I view this as from Alexandra's point-of-view during the family's captivity in Tobolsk.

Baker Baker, baking a cake
Make me a day
Make me whole again
And I wonder what's in a day
What's in your cake this time >Alexandra feels a sort of "emptiness" as the family is forced out of their home and under house arrest

The chorus however makes me think of someone searching for the Romanovs, looking through places like Tobolsk and Ipatiev to try and figure out what happened...
Here...
There must be something here
There must be something here
Here

And then later in the song, back to Alexandra...
Time
Thought I'd make friends with time
Thought we'd be flying
Maybe not this time >Alexandra wasn't accepted by a lot of the Russian aristocracy, but she thought that eventually things would change, not that everyone's hatred for her would increase.

Then there's Icicle. The first time I heard this song I wasn't really paying attention to the words, so I caught lines here and there that related to OTMA, but somehow totally missed all of the overt sexual references in the song. So anyway, most of it doesn't make me think of them, but those few lines still hold that connection for me... Plus, the opening piano part is gorgeous. Mysterious, then evolving into something innocent and fairytale-like, then collapsing into chaos. It in itself is metaphorical for the Romanovs.

Greeting the monster in our Easter dresses
Father says bow your head like the Good Book says
I think the Good Book is missing some pages... >the girls' interactions with Rasputin
Gonna lay down >When I first heard this line repeating throughout the song, it seemed like a haunting foreshadowing to me, of how they were going to die. ("lay down," collapse, buried, etc.)

And the last is Cloud on my Tongue. I also imagine this song as taking place in Tobolsk.
Someone's knockin' on my kitchen door
Leave the wood outside, what
All the girls here are freezing cold >Feels like a little scene from their lives in Siberia.

Don't stop now, what you're doing
What you're doing, my ugly one
Bring them all here
Hard to hide a hundred girls in your hair >Reminds me of all the jewels they were concealing.

The girl's in circles and circles, got to stop spinning
Circles and circles and circles again
Thought I was over the bridge now >Feels like the moment when they were told they were being taken somewhere else. They thought they were done with that, but they realize that it's not even close to being over, and it's dizzying.

Well, that's it for that project!!
Also, I heard Love Vigilantes by Iron & Wine (originally New Order) the other day and it reminded me of Nicholas on the front:

Oh, I've just come from the land of the sun
From a war that must be won in the name of truth
With our soldiers so brave your freedom we will save
With our rifles and grenades and some help from God

I want to see my family
My wife and child are waiting for me
I've got to go home
I've been so alone, you see

You just can't believe the joy I did receive
When I finally got my leave and I was going home
Oh, I flew through the sky, my convictions could not lie
For my country I would die, and I will see it soon

I want to see my family
My wife and child are waiting for me
I've got to go home
I've been so alone, you see

When I walked through the door my wife she lay upon the floor
And with tears her eyes did soar, I did not know why
Then I looked into her hand and I saw the telegram
Said that I was a brave, brave man, but that I was dead

I want to see my family
My wife and child are waiting for me
I've got to go home
I've been so alone, you see

I want to see my family
My wife and child are waiting for me
I've got to go home
I've been so alone, you see

[Katya90]

Okay, I guess I only thought I was done before...

Lately some Vienna Teng songs have been reminding me of NAOTMAA. Namely Antebellum and Last Snowfall. The first is mainly from the last line of the chorus: "I know our antebellum innocence was never meant to see the light of our armistice day"... they didn't live to see the end of the war. And the second just seems like what some of their reflections might've been like in Tobolsk, namely Alexandra when she had to choose to either go with Nicky or stay with the children. Here's a link to the lyrics: http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858761525/

Another song is the Red Hot Chili Peppers' Stadium Arcadium, but it's mostly a function of the first line: Bells around St. Petersburg when I saw you...

And lastly, I just remembered this the other day... back when I was younger and I first saw the animated movie Anastasia, the song Piano Man reminded me of the plot...
Son, can you play me a memory?
I'm not really sure how it goes
But it's sad and it's sweet,
And I knew it complete
When I wore a younger man's clothes

So, not exactly a NAOTMAA song, but kind of...
And the last thing is more than a song, but there was this old sketch on Saturday Night Live that wasn't actually funny, but sad... it was called "Love is a Dream" and it was about an old woman who tries on a tiara and suddenly becomes young and in a ballgown, and a man in a soldier's uniform comes up and dances with her. Just the atmosphere reminds me of them. Unfortunately it's not on youtube but here's a transcript with some pictures: http://snltranscripts.jt.org/88/88iloveisadream.phtml

[RonnieLee88]

This is probably a little bit of a stretch, but "I Owe You A Love Song" by Shiny Toy Guns kind of reminds me of Nicholas and Alexandra when they were younger, maybe the years between their second meeting in 1889 (when they really fell in love with each other) and their marriage.

(Chorus, sung by a guy)
I owe you a love song
So much i could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say

(This part's sung by a woman)
Remember the days
Of sleepless summer nights
That took us away
A perfect place a different time
Back when nothing was wrong
Now we're each sold separately
Our summers are gone
Grey skies are all i see

(In the case of Nicholas and Alexandra, they would have had a winter together as opposed to "sleepless summer nights", but I'm sure you understand the sentiment. "We're each sold separately" would be when they were apart, and that feeling of withdrawal of being away from someone you love.)

These broken days won't last forever
You know I'll put us back together

(I think these lyrics fit perfectly with Nicholas' attitude towards marrying Alix. It could be him saying, "Look, I know we're apart now, but I promise we'll end up together eventually.")

I owe you a love song
So much I could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say

(sung by a woman again)
Waiting alone
In the world you made for me
Makes staying in love
Just a world of make believe
Where I'm playing along
And your words aren't clear to me
Like hearing a song
Without a melody

(The two of them "made a world" when they fell in love (as it is with all couples--you and that other person seem to have your own little reality with each other). And even though both Nicholas and Alexandra were sure that they were in love, I'm sure that there had to have been moments when both of them (but particularly Alix, with her hesitation to abandon her Lutheran faith and her knowledge of the fact that Nicholas' parents did not want him to marry her) may have lost hope a bit and wondered whether or not they would really ever get to be together.)

These broken days won't last forever
You know i'll put us back together

I owe you a love song
So much i could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say

We climb
We crawl
Tear down the wall
That we've torn down before
Its not to late the song will say
What i never say

("Tear down the wall" Eventually, Nicholas' resolve won out and he got what he wanted--marriage to Alix)

I owe you a love song
So much i could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say (x2)

Probably a bit silly, but this song did remind me of them.

[Katya90]

More from me... this song reminds me of the Romanovs in captivity for some reason, even though the lyrics don't fit at all, geographically, time period, or otherwise!

Vienna Teng - No Gringo

father says head down
we don't want them finding you
mother says practice now
all the words you know

oh Arizona's burning
they say the fence turned round
now the razor wire keeps us out

mother says with luck
we'll sleep under a roof tonight
father says in the truck
we'll be crushed in tight

oh Chicago don't forget me
as the miles between us grow
keep the maple tree carved with the name of my love
the hills we would sled race down
Lake Michigan stay endless and painted in sky
goodbye

Mother says years ago
the whole world was ours to rule
father says let it go
those days are gone for good ...This is the verse that probably got me thinking of them

all the signs read no gringo
but somehow we'll find our way
maybe waiting at dawn by the factory doors
sunburnt and bent in the fields
please don't turn us in
we'll be silent as the grave
as time

[WildChild2]

I got one. this one is for Anastasia.
anastasia. anastasia.
such a prankster
such a jokster
such a clown
such a wildchild
she can stubborn like a mule but hey who isn't
She likes to play pratical jokes on people
she got something wicked in those eyes of hers
she likes to climb trees because she is a tomboy
she is the most famous out of the four daughters
Aint she a cool person to hang out with?

[Romanov_History_Buff]

I just watched pieces of Dreamgirls and at the end they have their final show and there's a song called Hard to Say Goodbye and as i was listening I'm like "for some reason this reminds me of OTMA" here's the song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KhGAQY9_I4

Hard To Say Goodbye, My Love

Ladies and gentlemen, in their farewell performance, the incredible Dreams --> don't know about this part though!

We didn't make forever.
We each got to go our separate way,
And now we're standing here, helpless,
Looking for something to say.
We've been together a long time.
We never thought it would end.
We were always so close to each other;
You were always my friend.

And it's hard to say goodbye, my love.
It's hard to see you cry, my love.
Hard to open up that door.
When you're not sure what you're going for.

We didn't want this to happen,
But we shouldn't feel sad.
We had a good life together.
Just remember, remember, all the times we had.
You know I'll always love you
You know I'll always care
And know matter how far (far I may go) I may go,
In my heart, you'll always be there

(It's so hard) hard to say goodbye, my love.
(Baby, it's so hard) hard to see you cry, my love.
(It's so hard) hard to open up that door,
When you're not sure what you're going for.

(It's so hard.)
Goodbye my love.
(Baby, it's so hard.)
We didn't make forever.
It's so hard.
I can feel there's something more.
(When you're not sure what you're going for.)
We've gotta grow,
We've gotta try,
Though it's hard, so hard
We have to say goodbye
Though it's hard, so hard
We have to say
We didn't make forever.
But i will always love you.
We didn't make forever.
But i will always love you.
It's so hard.
Baby it's so hard
It's so hard.
Baby it's so hard.
(repeat till end of song)

What do you think?

[RonnieLee88]

"All Of This Past" by Sara Bettens. Reminds me specifically of Alexandra Feodorovna, and how, of all of the Romanovs, she seemed to be the most resigned to the prospect of her death towards the end. You should really listen to the song. The music is really pretty, sad, and haunting.

Here I go again
Slipping further away
Letting go again
Of what keeps me in place
I like it here
But it scares me to death
There is nothing here

The light is beautiful
But I'm darker than light
And you are wonderful
But this moment is mine

All of this dust
All of this past
All of this over and gone
And never coming back
All of this forgotten
Not by me

I find comfort here
'Cause I know what is lost
Hope is always fear
For the pain it may cost
And I have searched for the reason to go on
I've tried and I've tried
But it's taking me so long
I might be better off
Closing my eyes
And God will come looking for me
In time

All of this dust
All of this past
All of this over and gone
And never coming back
All of this forgotten
Not by me
All of this dust
All of this past
All of this over and gone
And never coming back
All of this forgotten
Not by me

I can see myself
I look peaceful and pale
But underneath
I can barely inhale
I can hear myself singing that song
Over and over until it belongs to me

[WildChild2]

Warning may cause you to cry. sorry if i did.
Something i wrote about OTMAA
Lost Innocence
Sweet innocent children
killed so young
killed for no apparent reason
except for their namesake - Romanov
they are so innocent
paragram of innocence
didn't deserve to die or the disrespect
killed before they get to experience life
oh you beautiful children
having faces of angels
being stopped living before ever hitting your prime
never to get a chance to fall in love
never to get a Chance to get marry
never to get a chance to have kids
never to get a chance to have a family of their own
the world is not the same now that you are not here to see it flourished
Olga aged 22, 1895 - 1918
Tatiana aged 21, 1897 - 1918
Maria aged 19, 1899 - 1918
Anastasia aged 17, 1901 - 1918
Alexis aged 13, 1904 - 1918
canonized as saints
may they rest in peace
sweet little angels
never to get a chance to hear your angelic voices
goodbye. may you little angels rest in peace
RIP[/color]

[GrandDuchessAndrea]

The song "Once you had gold" by Enya really reminds me of the Romanovs:

Once you had gold,
Once you had silver,
Then came the rains out of the blue.
Ever and always. Always and ever.
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.
Now you can see, Spring becomes autumn, leaves become gold falling from view.
Ever and always. Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream come true,
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.
What is the dark shadows around you, why not take heart in the new day?
Ever and always. Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream for you,
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCL01HXDUAw

And I know this is a Romanov thread, but another Enya song, "Evening Falls" seems to be a perfect fit for Sissi and her not feeling at home at the Veinesse court and her traveling in later life. The fit really seems uncanny to me with this one. 

 When the evening falls and the daylight is fading,
from within me calls - could it be I am sleeping?
For a moment I stray, then it holds me completely.
Close to home, I cannot stay.
Close to home, feeling so far away.
As I walk there before me a shadow
from another world, where no other can follow.
carry me to my own, to where I can cross over...
Close to home - I cannot stay.
Close to home feeling so far away.
Forever searching; never right, I am lost
in oceans of night. Forever
hoping I can find memories.
those memories I left behind.
Even though I leave will I go on believing
that this time is real - am I lost in this feeling?
like a child passing through, never knowing the reason.
I am home - I know the way.
I am home - feeling oh, so far away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCfmBumHNSQ